I Don’t Understand

I Don’t Understand  The sun is out and beautiful. Still sadness invades my being. Yesterday it rained all day long. Yet I was saddened and lonely.   Even when angry I am sad I cry when saddened. I cry when content.  I cry when angry … I understood it was because of my abuse. I […]

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Return to Me

Expectantly, I awaited your return, but you did not come to me again. I thought you would always be mine, but you left me on my own, so alone.   Could it be that you delayed to show how much I needed you? Or to create a boundary between our life souls? You breathe life […]

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Crave

Crave Days led by cravings To give in…weakens Living with guilt now Regret inhabits soul … Cravings consume still Moments of desire nag For all that forbidden Unceasing…Oh so tired … Praying for relief now Search for peace now To crave leads to find Path unguided … Peace of God’s presence The path is made […]

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Asking God Questions

I sit alone in the early morning. The time I spend with God. I have prayed gratitude. I have prayed confessions. I have worshiped, praised Him. Then I ruin my prayer time. I ask God a question. Questioning God is allowed. It is the question “Why?” I lack faith. I start to cry. Who am […]

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