Not Enough

Not Enough Someone made me feel sad today. I felt inadequate, not good enough. Mind you, I knew I was ok in head. But for awhile I doubted myself. Will it always be this way for me? Will I ever just feel “normal?” I’m so confused now,confused. And then the feelings where I  Want to […]

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I Need Your Help

I Need Your Help I’m in trouble, Lord. I have decisions due. I can’t find answers. Each day is closer.  Thoughts unsure. Anxiety consumes. I’m exhausted, Lord. I seek You daily. I pray to You nightly. Still I can’t hear You. I’ve made To Do Lists. Nothing helps me. I know You see me. You […]

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Expectations

Expectations  Always waiting for what is next. No satisfaction with the known Heart yearns for more newness Head knows newness is false. Shiny new car or some jewelry  Quell the expectation monster Find satisfaction with what is. Look at all you’ve been given Cherish things before lost  Expect the unexpected joy  Sunrise Sunset A job […]

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Crumbling Down

Wake up in morn To find crumbling Heart and soul Sadness’s effect Look roundabout  Noting all debris  Close eyes with Hope’s denial Shudder to see Refuse present “How to get away?” Thinks despair  Lack of cleaning Absence repaired  Heart destined Soul’s journey too “Who cares…you?” Susans Soul…

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Thoughts of You

Your eyes sparkling hazel. Your smile when joyful Your height above me Your thoughtfulness How kind when you cared. So many thoughts of you. If only… if only. I could forget your anger. Forget about your cruelty Not think of hurtful comments How unkind you could be. So many thoughts of you. If only…if only. […]

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