Prayer about Shame and Fear
Also, I have so much trouble trusting others, even you, Lord. Because of the abuse, I became isolated and introverted and don’t trust anybody. My mind knows that I no longer need to isolate, be afraid of trusting, and unsociable. Why doesn’t my heart know?
My shame about my abuse and fear of abandonment led me as a result to binge on food in the past to decrease my anxiety related to my fear. The results of bingeing caused me to gain weight, isolate, and be dishonest by hiding my bingeing. Why can’t my heart let go; move toward a new beginning?
Although I may be introverted I can choose to trust those whom I feel are safe. I can also choose not to use bingeing but instead use meditation and mindful, healthy eating. Why doesn’t my heart know this like my mind does?
Why is my mind losing control while my heart trembles with fear and denies the truth, acting as though calamity will come at any moment.
Abba Father, Help me to have the courage to surrender to You, face the truth, and leave my shame, my fear, and my bingeing at the foot of the cross.
In Jesus name,
Psalm 69:18-20 (NKJV)
18 Draw near to my soul, and redeem it;
Deliver me because of my enemies.
19 You know my reproach, my shame, and my dishonor; My adversaries are all before You.
20 Reproach has broken my heart,
And I am full of heaviness; I looked for someone to take pity, but there was none;
And for comforters, but I found none.
Though your father and mother forsake you, the Lord will take care of you.
Be still and know that I am God…